PROCESSING DEATH
Processing the loss of someone close doesn’t mean leaving the grief behind. It’s about learning to move forward while carrying it with you. I’m still trying to figure out what it really means to “process” someone’s death. A friend recently mentioned that I’ve handled your passing so well abbu but it got me thinking what does “processing” even mean? Is it something that has a definite end? If yes then I don’t think I’m there yet. Though there was a time when I couldn’t even talk about you, but now I do. I can share stories with my family and friends and even laugh about the things we used to do together and honestly I love those moments of us talking about you. Maybe that’s part of what processing looks like, but there’s another side too. When I’m alone, it’s hard. I avoid thinking about you for too long because it overwhelms me. I don’t have any songs about fathers in my playlist because I can’t handle them. Instead, I push those thoughts aside just to get through the day. I...
