YOU WERE MY WALKING MIRACLE (EPISODE FIVE)

 when someone really close to us passes away, death starts to become less fear-full. you start to accept it, you start to realise its a reality. 

Death has made me learn that Allah deliberately shows you how people who today are right in front of you and our one of your favourites can vanish  away from your eyes in a matter of seconds and you cannot do a single thing for it except for praying about it because that’s how this dunya is meant to be. He, Allah takes away people to help you understand the reality of this world and reunites them with you in hereafter to help you understand the reality of hereafter.

Departure of my dearest father has taught me, that no matter how many steps you take away from Allah, it still only takes one to get back.

It taught me that the departure of your loved ones will take you at the verge of being scared of death and at last will leave you fearless, knowing that if they can be taken away (by the will of Allah S.W.T) everything else can be vanished too. nothing feels real, nothing seems permanent then and nothing surprises you anymore because such unexpected events make you strong enough to withstand anything. 

(as the same time of the year approaches, I get nervous knowing that i will have to relive every day of the month you left, from you being hospitalised right after my birthday to us living and praying in that one horrible week without knowing that it’s going to be a forever without you, I’ll miss your voice of wishing me birthday on phone call with a birthday song) 

I know almost every blog of mine turns out to be about you even if i want to write about something else. I write about it because even if everything is gone words will still be there, missing you doesn’t makes me weak it makes me do more for you, it makes me follow you, it reminds me of  your kindness that makes me believe in goodness of people. Your faith in Allah makes my faith in Him stronger everyday. You were my walking miracle ☀️